Can I forget for a while about Palestinian kids at war or starving people in Africa cause I feel like I want to let out my burdening problems recently and I don't want people feel like I'm having less problem than them or whoever or they feel like I should be more grateful about this or that because that's what I've been doing, enduring and forgetting what I actually feel in the meantime.
Since I left my smartphone in a taxi, I went back using my old Nokia which is unfortunately now, is broken again in a funny way, the screen goes all white that I can only receive incoming calls. In the same time I got no internet so I couldn't access my assignments or anything uni-related on the net. As if not enough misfortune already, I ran out of money and my mom was outside town for days so I had to wait like, 3 days before she sent me some again. My mom is working alone since Dad died in 2002 and next year she is retiring, thus I don't have much allowance, only enough to eat twice or once a day so I have to do a side job to satisfy my selfishness as a teenager.
I couldn't do my part time job because if I used the remaining cash for the transportation (I am using public trans) I couldn't eat for the next days. That day I didn't buy food or anything and just stayed in my room, starving and crying to sleep. Crying because all misfortunes came in the same time, giving me an overwhelming disadvantages.
But ahh...I shouldn't complain anymore should I? Why would people hear my rantings anyway, they just want to read my works, and I don't want to bother people either so here, I think I've written enough. I should be grateful that I will be going to Japan in the next three months thanks to the scholarship for orphaned kids. And probably I can finally buy a nice smartphone and a Playstation portable I do always want to own someday, with the help of the money from the scholarship foundation.