Can I forget for a while about Palestinian kids at war or starving people in Africa cause I feel like I want to let out my burdening problems recently and I don't want people feel like I'm having less problem than them or whoever or they feel like I should be more grateful about this or that because that's what I've been doing, enduring and forgetting what I actually feel in the meantime.
Since I left my smartphone in a taxi, I went back using my old Nokia which is unfortunately now, is broken again in a funny way, the screen goes all white that I can only receive incoming calls. In the same time I got no internet so I couldn't access my assignments or anything uni-related on the net. As if not enough misfortune already, I ran out of money and my mom was outside town for days so I had to wait like, 3 days before she sent me some again. My mom is working alone since Dad died in 2002 and next year she is retiring, thus I don't have much allowance, only enough to eat twice or once a day so I have to do a side job to satisfy my selfishness as a teenager.
I couldn't do my part time job because if I used the remaining cash for the transportation (I am using public trans) I couldn't eat for the next days. That day I didn't buy food or anything and just stayed in my room, starving and crying to sleep. Crying because all misfortunes came in the same time, giving me an overwhelming disadvantages.
But ahh...I shouldn't complain anymore should I? Why would people hear my rantings anyway, they just want to read my works, and I don't want to bother people either so here, I think I've written enough. I should be grateful that I will be going to Japan in the next three months thanks to the scholarship for orphaned kids. And probably I can finally buy a nice smartphone and a Playstation portable I do always want to own someday, with the help of the money from the scholarship foundation.
Your own well-being should be your first priority since no one else is going to take that job from you. You could always find someone that is worse off than you but that doesn't change your own needs in any way.
ReplyDeleteWhat happened to the rest of your work savings though? Food should always come first. orz Once you get that scholarship it should be much easier to save up money and for the moment it might be better to use your money for everyday needs instead of savings.
Wow.. That's quite some misfortune you got there... But i don't know much about you / your life ( i wish i do haha) so all i can say is sorry about the things you have to go through... After reading it, frankly it sucks like really...
ReplyDeleteBut keep looking forward and move on Things will turn for the better :) cause those who are successful usually have to go through like damn much hardship/failure first right?
Oh and People do want to know how their fav author are doing :o well at least I do... Plus Writing it all out and posting can release some of those stress i hope...
I hope your lucks turns better soon, at least you are well enough to notice and be grateful for the happiness in life :) cause i have friends who really see really nothing cause they are so encaged by negativity.
I'm not good with words like you are.. so if i said anything offensive i apologise ahead.