Another Night

Lately I've been quarreling with her. We are quarreling over simple things that developed into a non-communicating relationship at all.



I probably made many mistakes. My words hurt her a lot. My impulsive actions. Everything that disappointed her.

We become rarely having phone convos. Chat on LINE doesnt really help either. There was always awkward atmosphere which I dont know how to get rid of them.

Tonight I guess I will be sleeping with my eyes open, thinking about her all day just like what I always do. While I dont know whether she does the same too.

Yesterday, I realized all my mistakes in my 18 years of life and for the first time, I said sorry to my Mom while crying. Yeah, what she said was the same with my Mom's. I am too selfish. Not understanding nor caring of other person.

I'm not asking anything in return. I really love her unconditionally. But humans do have a limit dont they? I want her love too. I want her warmth too. I want us.

Hope. Yeah I'm hoping again. Hoping that we could overcome this.

And God, sorry for ignoring you lately. I have no other places than you to talk to.

God, I love her. I really do.

For now I could only wait.